It is my habit to write something thoughtful and pondering - although hopefully not ponderous - on the last day of the year, sort of summing up the theme of the past 12 months. This year, however, it could be argued that I've already done that - early this month, I wrote about finally getting to that place in my personal growth where instead of mindlessly keeping going, not only did I protect myself from harm, but I also felt good about it. Alison, wise as usual, wished me a happy new year in a comment on that post and she was absolutely right. Because the theme of this year has been finally learning that sometimes, not doing is the right thing to do. I'm not crazy enough to believe that this one won’t need learning over and over again, but the fact that I finally got there, after years of talking about it but never quite figuring out how to click from theory of it to the practice of redirecting the fierce is my big accomplishment of 2010.
And so, what do you do when you already written your New Year's post and are sitting by your computer with a shoulder that's bitching because it's been used quite a bit in the past week? You act again upon this miraculous thing that you have learned and stop.
But not quite yet.
I could not have learned this without you. You reading this blog, leaving comments with your take on things, sharing your experiences, comments that make me think, push me to consider new angles or stop me from hiding from a truth I need to process in order to move on in the journey have helped more than paying a therapist. Without you, I would not be where I am - we are each other's friends, support group and private cheerleading squad. I love the Internet and. I’m forever grateful that you're out there.
And I'm also curious, because this is not a one-sided conversation, so I'm wondering…
What is your big accomplishment of 2010?
I hope you all have a wonderful evening and that next year will treat you well, keep you healthy, make you laugh and nourish your personal growth. See you next year!