"I can't do a New Year's post this year, it'll sound like I'm bragging."
This is what I said earlier this week, heavily influenced by that Danish-Canadian thing about not tooting your own horn overmuch (and perhaps a little by the fear that if I say something out loud, it'll jinx it).
At New Year's in 2005, I wrote about buying the ticket. In 2007, I wrote about how my life was smaller than it had ever been, yet I was genuinely happy. In 2008, I wrote about how by stepping around, you can find a new road to old joys, that limits can be transcended if you change your way of thinking. And it all comes out of getting my life back five years ago, about coming very close to losing everything and in the aftermath and healing finding happiness and joy in a place so unlike what I had previously imagined would be necessary for happiness and joy.
And then 2009 happened. As I mentioned in yesterday's post for MyRACentral, comparing my life today to what I could do and was doing on
And then I got the world.
In the past, I've talked about being exactly where I'm supposed to be, usually around times of difficulty, where things take longer than I'd hoped or where it seems apparent that I need to become accustomed to living in a smaller world and it's been hard to believe it at times. And now? Now would not be possible without those hard times. Without almost losing everything five years ago, I wouldn't have my now. I wouldn't have taken this road and without being razed to the ground by illness and pain, I wouldn't have been able to build the new me and my new life. Everything I have today can be linked directly back to a very dark place, everything I am today comes from that moment in my life. And if I'm grateful for the way my life has turned out - and I am, every minute of every day - I am also grateful for having been in that dark place. It and the hard journey out of it taught me more about living, happiness and limitless than any other event in my life.
I’ve just finished reading American on Purpose, Craig Ferguson’s autobiography - by the way, I can highly recommend it, especially the audio version read by the author (oh, that Glasgow accent!) - and he mentions that the motto of the
Before I was able to do my best, someone else to had to do theirs. And that was Abbott, the pharmaceutical company that makes Humira. Someone there made the decision to invest millions of dollars and likely decades in developing this drug and without that decision, I wouldn't have my now. And other people need thanking, too, because without the taxpayers of
You never know.
May your hard times turn into joy. Happy New Year!